What I want.

In a response to Yue's Post.

I agree, sometimes the big dreams overwhelm the small ones. Actually the small ones arent really that small...

1. Being cradled in an intimate hug
2. Breathing, in a scent of honeysuckle, a breath...overwhelmed in jasmine, but oh! a fragrance so light and sweet that your eyes spring wide with surprise! Your mouth an "o!' of unforeseen bliss and delight. All that is spring has just reached in and stroked your innermost, intimate spirit and left you both more and less...
3. Looking out, feasting your eyes on utter beauty, drinking in viridian green, cerluean blue and losing all sense of you...
4. Breathing.
5. Falling asleep
6. Waking up to sunshine
7. the feel of simple cotton against bare skin
8. Walking out of a steaming shower. Clean.
9. the first drink of water on a sweaty sunny day
10. being stroked.
11. Being warm.
12. laughing, knowing someone is watching you, knowing someone is happy because u are happy
13. Seeing Yue.
14. Watching Nancy look at something else. Watching how her eyes are slanted like a cats, double lidded like she just woke up, tawny brown, like like sunlight streaking through honey.
15. Walking out of a sauna, the first breath. How EASY it is! this breath! It is light and bright and I feel it travelling! through and down and 'round and 'round. Spinning. In. Me.
16. Being dizzy.
17. Drowning. (Open your eyes! You're lost, smothered in beauty, by the gorgeous weightless wet colour of Luminescent Sea-Glass Green. you're going to DIE, killed by glory, because, simply you are too tiny, too insignificant! so much a speck of nothing. But it's OK. because it feels sort of Divine. You will watch your last breath, screamed silently (a rising rill of little bubbles...) stream away from your not-quite-dead body....)
18. Being desired, feeling the weight of all those eyes turned in your direction, cumulated wanting pressing like the desert heat trapped in caverns. Hot. Dark. Dirty.
19. Being wicked, holding yourself justout of someonelse's reach... tantalising...almost! (closer...) nearly there! (come..)...bit more!...(NOT!)...HAHAHAHA!!!
20. Breaking your limits. being THERE when once you weren't.